12&13

Five men I find attractive? In no particular order… travis masters, travis masters, travis masters, ryan gosseling, george clooney :) 
 
But for a more serious subject- what are my opinions about my body and how comfortable am I with it?
We have a bit of a love/hate relationship going on here. Bodies and feelings are both very complicated. I am tall and slender, strong but also delicate. I grew up dancing, running, barefoot living. I was competitive, athletic & free. When I got sick at the age of 11 my body betrayed me. I felt so uncomfortable in my skin for so many reasons. My body wouldn’t cooperate; I couldn’t even physically eat. I could barely walk some days. The way I felt and the way I knew the Lord made me was not being apparent in my physical appearance. That led to years, and I mean years, of challenging feelings towards my own body. Even when I was healthy I felt the need to control my body because for so long it controlled me. I am doing much better now, but I am hyper aware of my body, the way it moves, the way it feels, and the way it looks. I know that my body is a temple to the Lord and for that I am grateful and want to honor him in the way I treat it. So in that, I know that I am beautiful because His light illuminates me and my illness cannot overtake that.
Photo by Peter Morse  
 

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